I’ve been working on my methodology for the social component
of my research (which is, in a nutshell, working in local communities to
understand their harvest of agaves and how bat conservation efforts could
potentially be incorporated) and I feel like I don’t know what the heck I’m
doing. I’ve taken several classes in anthropology and geography on qualitative
methods (e.g. interviewing, focus groups, questionnaire surveys, etc.) but I
feel that all my in-class training hasn’t truly prepared me for the real world.
For example, I’ll be writing something about a method I’m proposing to use,
like interviews, and realize I don’t really understand why I’m proposing to use
that method or why I’m proposing to ask a certain question. Or I get to a point
where I feel like I have an idea of what’s going on in my own mind, and then I
get sidetracked with more information and more possibilities of methods to use
or questions to ask. I’m finding it hard to keep myself narrowed down, I think
because I don’t truly understand how “much” I’m supposed to be doing for a
dissertation, how much is too much or not enough, etc. It all seems so
interconnected and everything seems
important to know and ask about!
However, the other day I did have a realization that I was spending so much time worrying about and trying to plan (before coming here) how many sample nights I need for my bat monitoring, how many people I should interview, etc. to be “rigorous”, but now that I’m here and coordinating with my collaborators I have realized that part of doing this kind of inter/transdisciplinary research is that it’s not always possible to do everything exactly the way you want to in an “ideal world”, and I’m feeling better about doing as much as possible within the limits of my funding, scheduling constraints, etc. Especially this summer when I’m still unsure exactly how (or if) all my plans will work, and especially because of working in a foreign country in another language, I have to be okay with doing as much as I can as well as I can, but not hold myself to some unattainable (and unrealistic) ideal. I think grad students struggle with this feeling a lot (I sure do!) but I’m trying to learn to tamper this feeling with an understanding that when doing your research in situations like this (in a foreign country, not speaking the language fluently, setting schedules and study locations with a small local organization, etc.) an important part of the end goal is not just to earn a degree and write a dissertation, but also to learn how to do the kind of work that we as conservation biologists will be doing the rest of our careers.
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